When is the last time you waited with expectancy? You know how it feels don’t you? Waiting with a sense of just knowing that something good is about to happen. Have you ever just felt it in your bones that something wonderful was coming? I find myself in that place right now. Have you been there?
I have struggled in the past with truly believing with all of my heart that when I pray, God will answer my prayers. I’m not sure why I felt that way. I guess it had to do with the fact that I often prayed for my will, not God’s. It was that way for many years. One day, in the midst of a Bible study, I realized that I wasn’t praying with expectancy. I wasn’t praying with full intention that God would hear my prayers and answer me. I had to learn to how pray all over again…pray with expectancy.
Several months ago, my Dad’s health had deteriorated significantly. I was praying, but I was praying my will. During that time, the Lord was not answering me. I felt uneasy, anxious, and even confused. Why if I was praying was the Lord not answering me? He tells us in Psalm 37:4, “Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Y’all, I thought I was delighting in the Lord. I love Him with all of my heart. I do my best to live according to His will each day, so why was He not granting me the desires of my heart?
It was on one of the days I was frustrated with God’s lack of response that I plunged into Bible study. My heart was uneasy, and I needed the Lord to calm my nerves. It was at that moment the words “you have to pray for a miracle, and then expect a miracle.” What? I was praying for a miracle. I was telling God exactly what that miracle needed to be! And that my dears is where I was going wrong. I was telling God what I thought He should do, not laying my worries at His feet and trusting that He would do what was best according to His mighty plan.
Y’all, I was being like Abraham when he was frustrated with God not providing him with a son. Abraham decided to take matters into his own hands. He was helping God along rather than waiting for God’s perfect timing, and His faultless plan. I was no better. Here I was praying my will, my timing…me…not God. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I had to change my prayers, and my expectations. It’s not about my worldly desires, it’s about my deepest heart’s desires, and to be perfectly honest, those are two different things.
My worldly desire was that God would end the years of suffering and abuse Mom and I had endured with Dad. But my heart’s desire was that Dad would be changed, and that somehow, He would be the Dad I had never had in my life. My heart’s desire was to see Dad get sober, and to see him get saved. The greatest desire of my heart pushed all other desires aside…the greatest of all was the desire to let the Lord take control of this situation. That moment, my prayers changed. No longer was I telling God what I needed according to my plan. I simply began to ask God for a miracle. Y’all, I surely needed one!
As soon as I began to pray for God to perform a miracle with no other expectation in the situation, my anxiety lifted. I found peace unlike any other time in my life. It truly was as Philippians 4:7 says, “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Peace truly surpassed all understanding in my life. And that my dear ones, was the first miracle.
Day after day, I continued to pray God would perform a miracle in Dad’s life. Y’all, day after day God did! Miracles abounded ranging from calm spirits, and gentle demeanors, to my Dad being sober for the first time in my forty some years on this earth. You know what other miracle happened? My heart. Yep! As I saw God working His will in all situations; how wonderful, perfect, and exact the plan unfolded before my eyes, I immediately knew that trust and expectancy were miracles in my life.
Over the past few months, Dad’s health is still poor. However, not a day goes by where I don’t feel calm…peace and comfort with the situation. Once I put it all in God’s hands, and then learned to wait expectantly, everything changed. You see, my prayer life downfall wasn’t simply coming from my desire to tell God how to do His job. Y’all, I was stumbling over the fact that I wasn’t waiting with eyes wide hope expecting God to answer my prayers.
Dear Sister, when you pray with the expectation that God is going to do a mighty work…that He is going to answer your prayers, your prayer life will change! It changes because you believe God in a way like never before. Doubt leaves life. Questions as to whether things will work out evaporate. Why? Because everything God does works for His glory, and you dear Sister…you bring Him glory!
My new prayer perspective…that whole expectancy thing…it makes life more exciting too. Why? Well, because you wait with eyes wide open, excited to see what God is going to do next. This week, a dear man, deeply committed to Christ feel horribly ill. He is in a coma with no brain activity other than the tiny spot that tells the body to breathe. For a few days, he was on life support. His family prayed, and asked the community to pray for direction…for a miracle, and we did. Y’all, our friend’s status hasn’t changed one bit as of yet. I’ve started to see people posting on social media how much they will miss this man. They seem to have given up on the possibility of recovery.
Not this chick y’all! Our God is a mighty God, and He can do anything He desires. I am waiting with expectancy. God is going to do something great here. It is possible that He will heal our friend this side of eternity. Oh dear sister, if He does, this man will make it known to the world! If our Lord decides to heal him by taking him home, well dear ones, those of us left behind will make the miracle of heavenly healing known! I’m not giving up on healing for this friend because dear ones, I am waiting with excitement and expectation. I know that God will perform a miracle, and this time I’m not telling Him what it needs to be. I’m just waiting to see how our God shows off this time!