God’s mighty power is limited only by my faith or lack there of. I hadn’t really thought much about the quantity of my faith before. I have faith, shouldn’t that be enough? I mean God references faith approximately 18 times in Hebrews 11 alone. Faith is an important factor in our Christian lives. I have faith! Or do I?
I began leading a Beth Moore Bible study this week. Her “Believing God” study hit me right where it hurt. Who knew that at the end of Day 2 my faith life, and relationship with our mighty Lord would never…ever be the same. It’s time for me to believe God…not simply believe in God.
I needed some time to really contemplate that concept. I’ve always believed in God. I know He is real, that He is truth, and that He inspired…breathed…every word of the Bible. Y’all, I’m a good Christian. I believe in God and in His mighty power. I pray, I read my Bible, I’ve even led folks to the Lord. So I must be doing this child of God thing ok…right?
Well y’all I was cruising along believing my “good Christian” attitude until Beth came along and blew that one out of the water. Now, don’t get me wrong. She didn’t say living life the way I had been was wrong in any way. No, not in any way is my walk wrong. I most certainly will be walking the streets of gold when my time on this earth is over. I have security in that. But what about my time here on earth? Y’all, I was missing part of the life God has for me. Y’all, I was missing Him as a person. I was missing those face to face experiences with Him. I was missing out on the most intimate God relationship I could possibly have because I was simply believing in God.
So what’s the difference here Sister? Let me tell you…there is a huge difference between believing in God and wholeheartedly believing God. God led to me do my studying in Hebrews tonight. I love Hebrews 11. It’s all about Faith! “Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen…” I was seeing evidence of God in my life. I was seeing things I for which I had hoped come to fruition, so what on earth was I missing? Substance y’all…substance!
Substance, according to my friend Mr. Webster, is matter. It’s physical and tangible. It’s a solid presence. Presence. My relationship with God should be a physically, tangible relationship. I should be able to feel the presence of God beside me just as I feel my family and friends. Y’all…I’m not just supposed to believe God exists. I am supposed to see and feel His existence. I’m supposed to know my God exists. Amen? Amen!
My relationship…our relationships with God should be so real that we interact with Him…trust and expect Him to show up in our lives. I need to feel so close to Him that I’m setting Him a place at the dinner table. Y’all, it’s not just about praying and then hoping He will come through. Sister, it’s about praying and KNOWING He will come through. Suddenly, the difference between believing in God, and believing God made sense to me.
If God’s word is absolute truth, then we have to bank on God doing what He says He will do. In Hebrews 13:5, God first gives us some directions by which to live. Then, He makes us a promise “…I will never leave you or forsake you.” Until now y’all, I’ve absolutely believed that. However, I’ve believed it at a distance so to speak. I’ve believed that God in heaven will never leave me. I’ve not done very well acknowledging the Holy Spirit…standing beside me. I’ve lacked that degree of closeness with Him.
A favorite song of mine came to mind tonight as I was pondering the state of my relationship with my Lord. Kari Jobe sings, “The more I seek you, the more I find you, the more I find you, the more I love you. I want to sit at your feet, drink from the cup in your hand, lay back against you and breathe, and feel your heartbeat…”. Y’all, I want that relationship with my God! I want to be so connected to Him that I can feel His heartbeat. I want to feel his breath on my shoulder as He hugs me on a bad day. I want to feel the scratch of His whiskers on my cheek. I want to not simply love God. I want to be in love with God. Dear Sister…that’s a very different perspective.
Loving God can be like loving your favorite flower, or a beautiful spring breeze. Being in love with God is not being able to stop thinking about Him. Not being able to take a step without Him, and not knowing how I’d live life if He weren’t next to me. Dear Sister…that’s the kind of loving God relationship I desire tonight.
I have a long way to go in my relationship with God. It’s changing the way I think. It’s having the realization that when I sit down to have my morning coffee, my Lord sits beside me. It’s knowing that when I can’t sleep at night, and I’m pacing the floor, y’all…He is right there with me! I want to put my hand in His, and compare the size of our hands the way little girls do with their daddy. I want Him to brush the hair out of my face on a bad day, and tell me it’s ok because He’s got this. Oh dear Sister, I want to believe my God…put my absolute faith in my God…because dear one, my God walks beside me. He walks beside you too.